I found being both to be very difficult an d frustrating so what I ultimately
did was to stop leading meetings, stop taking phone calls as a leader and to
then go on reserve. I could easily wear two hats, it was other people who had
the problem.

As an LLL leader, I never did home visits and I never touched anyone, as an
LC my rle is clearly hands on, therapeutic and invloves my total committment
to that clent until our relationship is officially ended. That puts me in a
legal position that I prefer to not be in as a leader.

I often felt discriminated against by other lll leaders. That because I was
na LC and because I charged for services that I had betrayed them. I still
don't get it. Some of the leaders who were the nastiest still give me dirty
looks when they see me st conferences. I prefer to not have that kind of bad
blood so in the interest of keeping a good rapport with the Leaders in my
current city of residence, I chose to not be actively involved in League but
to actively show my support for what they do as peer counselors.

I do have strong opinions about what a leader should and should not do, which
stem from my own experience of of being both and seeing the difference in the
way i am educated as an LC and how I was educated as a LLL leader. Those
strong opions helped me keep my hats straight. One of my guiding principles
has always been to clearly regonize my limitations. This keeps me from
crossing over some line out of ignorance.

This is a challenging subject and I would like to know how others have
handled it.

Alison