Wow, Marie, what a wonderful testimonial to the power of one person in our lives. LLL is rich with these stories, but yours has got to be one of the most dramatic! Thanks very much for sharing this with us. I fully agree that many of us don't really know how to give ourselves over to our babies. We're very worried about intimacy and control, and these attitudes get in the way of truly enjoying our kids. I've seen such amazing transitions in women attending LLL meetings over the past 18 years I've been involved. Peer support is incredibly powerful, and I don't think LLL markets itself well enough in this aspect of what it does so very well. Breastfeeding information is important, but being surrounded by women who really know how to mother, as well as breastfeed, is much more valuable, IMO. Leslie Ayre-Jaschke, BEd, IBCLC Peace River, Alberta, Canada