HI All,
My own story on this is a bit different, but still similar.  Most of you
know that I have a toddler who is still BF as well as my newborn.  After PJ
was born Ben, my toddler, went from BF 8 times a day to 1-2 times.  No
problem really because PJ was BF constantly and I didn't have enough time to
BF them both as much as they both wanted/needed.  What I wasn't prepared for
were the feelings of anger and frustration that I suddenly had when my
let-down would occur while Ben (toddler) would BF.  I was shocked. I had
never had the feeling of wanting to throw a BF kid off my lap in anger
before.  There were no problems with the baby and let-down, just Ben.  I
thought maybe it was a combination of flashbacks to the past when Ben and I
went through our BF Hell and that he was "taking" milk away from the baby
(even ho he wasn't), or maybe it was that I wanted him to wean so I could
have a (finally) great BF relationship with my newborn and not have to share
it with anyone else.  I don't know what it was for sure, and probably never
will.(Hormones?)  Those feelings took about 3 weeks to go away, but what a
lousy 3 weeks they were.  Now, almost 2 months later, I have no problem BF
Ben which is nice for both of us.  NO horrible feelings that he sensed and I
felt guilty for.  Maybe what I went through is the same thing that the other
moms are going through.  I am glad for their sakes and mine that the
feelings didn't last too long.  I was getting to the point of cutting Ben
off cold because the emotions were too difficult for me to deal with.  There
is nothing more frightening than having feelings of anger or hate while BF a
child you love so dearly.
Jay
Jay Simpson, CLE
Sacramento, CA
Mama Milk is the Greatest!