At 12:06 AM 9/24/2001 -0400, you wrote:

>  Yet, I keep wondering why *I'm* so
>tired, so unable to concentrate, etc. Grief is often easier to recognize in
>someone else than in ourselves. I have to remind myself to be patient and
>kind with myself, to give myself time...

Thank you for this post, Cynthia. I had a strange experience this morning.
I am a webmaster for various nonprofit organizations, many having a
breastfeeding focus. Right now I am working hard at revising a very, very
large website--tried to have "creative" meetings the week of the 11th,
after being on a plane heading to O'Hare when the crashes happened. It was
not the best of time, and the guy (actually a close friend) I was working
with and I were a bit "snipish," though, actually, working creatively and
leaning new things helped me feel more "normal." Since coming home (took
two very stressful days), I have had trouble buckling down, though I have
deadlines!

Today, I suddenly realized I was making lots and lots of progress and felt
"OK" for the first time in quite some time. I think what did it was
focusing on the people I would be helping with what I am doing--all those
breastfeeding mothers. I am so glad that what I do is something that does
help people, one mother and baby at a time. I feel like I am "doing
something," which is what all those people on television  keep saying will
help us with our grief and trauma.

So, those of us who work with breastfeeding mothers are lucky in some
ways--we do have something to do that contributes to peace and harmony in
some way. I am so thankful for the chance to be doing work that makes a
difference, and salute all of you who do.

Sue Ann Kendall
Austin, Texas, USA
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